Happniess never stays at my doors,
It just knocks makes me smile and leaves again with a tear in my eyes.
Always thought for others and than for myself...
Was it wrong or was it my mistake...
Times are passing by like the speed of gushing water of falls..
Rubs against my wounds everytime and goes....
Be the season dry or be it rain, a tear always rolls on cheeks leaving me depressed...
However much I try nothing seems to be my side,
Nothing seems to remain and hold by,
I cared I cried I yelled I pleaded
Things are still so much unsaid..
They think, they assume
They are blinfolded today
Just pray to god they become aware...
Missing life to the fullest..
Those were the days, those were the moments...
They understood me they claimed...
Then how did they fall back and said
" u are strange"
Proving and explanation; why has it become part of relationship,
And why not forget anf forgive just for the sake of relationship...
I m too forget all the past just to give a kick start...
Loads is to life to add on..
Will this separation lay foundation for other..
Mind and heart both say the same..
Wish is to get things to normal or find the way to let go of things...
Im tiered still I am trying praying to god to get back my friends.................

Who is a true friend?

Who is a true friend??
A friend in need is a friend indeed - most commenly used phrase while defining a friend. But does it really stand true if it does then I am sad because I do not have any friend in my life..
The following came as a forward mail to me from someone:
" Once I was walking on a bridge to go to the otherside and reach my friend. Suddenly realised the bridge was going to fall. I yelled, screamed, called out my friend, waved at him but he never retured or came for my help and also did not respond. I reached otherside of bridge somwhow and to my surprise I saw my friend holding to rope; saving the bridge from falling. Moral of the story - Even if your friend does not respond to your pain and problems that you express always remember he is silently holding you from falling."
I do not realy believe in it anymore.

Friends are people who are selfless. Friends are for eachothers help and support. Friends can leave all its priorities just to make you smile or listen to you. A Friend is one who will stand next to you proudly even if you are the most disrespected, ugly person. A true friend is one who knows all your flaws but yet accepts you as you are. A friend is one for whom nothing is comparable in the world. A friend is one who stands at a position which is just after our god and parents. A friend is one who makes you and also breaks you like destiny.
This is what I understand by true friend. I have also been so and tried to be with my friends always.

But when it comes to me why do i get friends for whom it doesnt matter what i go through. When I go to so called mmy best fridn to share my problem it bothers him..he dsnt like it feels im always crying...They c us upset yet will never try to find whats wrong, why you are like this, why are you what you are today, were is always like this...they will never try to find all this but just say that I m sad....I really dont know what the problem with people...
My feelings become fake it i havenr behaved the way anyone would otherwise behave...I m true and honest to ask and tell things but I m not right if i do so.... When I do not behave, say what they want their ego is hurt or probably they have not experienced so much of honesty that they cant bare it they finally have one option i.e. I am fake my emotions are fake I am using them and god knows what....

Its easy to create opinion than finding what the person is....and why he or she is what the present is...........


I feel i am an alien.................. coz im too honest, too true to this world that i always land up giving explations to the truth i said.............So is the problem with me or with the listener.......?

I'll come to you when I need you.........

We humans are so selfish in our life. There are two kind of people one is the person who is intentionally selfish and one non intentionally selfish.
We make friends, we talk to them, we share things with them, we play with them, we cry with them, we laugh we them but is there a pinch of selfishness added to all this relationships in our life?
We make relations with some intention and futher it either becomes selfless relation or feeling or it ends moment ones need is fulfilled.
I have come across so many people in my life some have been with me forever, some left me, some promised and left me and some I left. As always I m confused how do you judge one person. How do we know he/ she is true to us and with their feelings?