Perception and perseverance

Perception and Perseverance is through which one gains success,
Every drop that falls from sky had a reason and a place of existence,
Every drop that falls from sky has a power enough to water a plant and refresh a bud,
Every drop that falls from sky is powerful enough to quench one's thirst,
Every drop that falls from Sky is big enough to make the Ocean fuller and larger,
Every drop that falls from sky is a liquid with a shine of a diamond,
It's all that small drop which is important but whats our perception?

Every Farmer who sows a seed hold determination that of a Pilot holding risk of 300 lives,
Every Pilot holds a vision as that of a Chess player trying to save its countries respect,
Every Chess player holds a plan & strategy of a soldier fighting to save his land,
Every soldier holds strength that of a sea fighting with the pollution that humans spread,

All of it are larger than our imaginations but what is the perseverance that they hold and we don't?

Standing on the edge of the mountain,
Wide sky above when I raise my head
Never ending sea when I look below
Spreading my hands like the wings,
feeling the eternity,
wish to hide in your arms,
take me in your arms for last time for forever,
closing eyes feel you so close,
Now i know praying is not all that matters,
Its all how you feel the divine force
I am addicted to you
Oh my god, at times I am so handicapped without you,
No sleep is the regular affair,
but the song of your name makes me sleep & takes me to the world of dreams,
Take me in your again for last and for forever,
Kiss away my pain is the only wish,
I have lost my mind,
Stand by me forever or,
just take my breath away,
want you to know forever...
the best chapter of my life were me and you...
it was never a short while
but a long journey together...
Ever if I write the chapter of my life
to you its the promise for life..
ours would be the longest of all and the best of all...
The journey of us is larger than life...
Standing on the edge of the mountain,
Wide sky above when I raise my head
Never ending sea when I look below
Spreading my hands like the wings,
feeling the eternity,
wish to hide in your arms,
take me in your arms for last time for forever,
Swear by you to tell you
You are the eternal part of me & life..
you live in me as my soul...
we are never away
JUST...
take me in your arms for last time for forever,

Standing on the edge of the mountain,
Wide sky above when I raise my head
Never ending sea when I look below
Spreading my hands like the wings,
feeling the eternity,
wish to hide in your arms,
take me in your arms for last time for forever..

To others and for me

To the world it seems all wrong,
for me it seems all lack of understanding,
for others its just a phase,
for me its the part of life
for others its a pebble,
for me its the rock
for others its just a drop,
for me its the season of rain
for others its a dream to be forgotten when awake,
for me its the fact of my life
for others its just another tale,
for me its the story of life
for others there is nothing to analyse,
for me its the decision of wrong or right
for others it was lack of patience,
for me it was a continuous unsuccessful try
for others it is just a night,
for me they were thousands of dark nights
for others its the new bright day,
for me its still the sunset
for others its the new start of better life,
for me I am still holding back and stuck somewhere
for others its the moving time,
for me its the clock stuck at a time
for others its all black,
for me its black, white and grey
for me its all the moment of truth,
hard to believe, hard to absorb, hard to live and hard to hide........

That would bind us together someday....

Days start with heavy eyes,
flooded mind
and the thought for life
and a silent question inside,
Set the breakfast and the lunch,
pack the bag and pack the lunch,
pulling myself to get to work, heading to the railway station,
sitting in the train travelling miles everyday,
with heavy eyes,
flooded mind
and the thought for life
and a silent question inside,
Trying to create the world of my own,
answer the questions the way i want,
Daily hustle and bustle of life,
makes me think;
will there ever be something that would bind us together someday?
moments of past, memories of yesterday,
why do they take so long to fade,
the silent questions inside me,
leave me with wrinkles on my forehead,

In search.......

The change is awaited for,

When will it happen , when will it come

imaginations of future different than yesterdays

make life more miserable...

Tommorrow would be different,

it wont be the way i want it today

or i wanted it yesterday..

Living positive is the motive now

planning of better future is now

life would be complete someday..

is the hope i breath with

Walking on the track

trying to concentrate and just look straight

to focus on the goal is the vision now

To live life completely without the element of completion

is the new way i have to learn

Taking things lightly,

analysing every step,

every past, every moment, every word said

to make life better...

Remember good moments that will help to live life,

plucking the most beautiful flowers from the garden of my life

which makes me smile and forget the wounds caused while plucking those flowers

I have learnt a lot from my past,

know that decisions werent wrong,

know what i said and did,

know all the commitment all the love,

all the dreams all the fun,

was always true, was always fair,

Life is on hold...

waiting and finding answers and ways to know what is right

where is life?

Lessons of life - Best poem I ever heard

I feared being alone until I learned to like myself.
I feared failure until I realized that I only fail when I don't try.
I feared success until I realized that I had to tryin order to be happy with myself.
I feared people's opinions until I learned that people would have opinions about me anyway.
I feared rejection until I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain until I learned that it's necessary for growth.
I feared the truth until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life until I experienc edits beauty.
I feared death until I realized that it's not an end, but a beginning.
I feared my destiny,until I realized thatI had the power to change my life.
I feared hate until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared love until it touched my heart,making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.
I feared ridicule until I learned how to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old until I realized thatI gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future until I realized that life just kept getting better.
I feared the past until I realized thatit could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark until I saw the beauty of the starlight.
I feared the light until I learned that the truth would give me strength.
I feared change,until I saw thateven the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly.

Weekend..the best after a long time

Evergreen are days spent with friends..
Weekend was fun...absolute fun..
Smiled with friends..
Laughed with friends...
Had a drink for a change to forget all pain....
We shared all the stories of all this days gone by...
Enjoyed like we never gonna meet again....
Remebered college days, the lectures we buncked..
The movies we saw and the shopping we did....
Discussed our jobs, our frustrations...
Felt like a feather with no weight...
Felt like a new sunrise...
Felt like I had settled on the shore and finally...
A strong wave came and took me with it to be happy.....
We rarely happen to meet...
But felt that all had some prob and god gave us an opportunity....
that we met again in such a short while........
Wish and wait for more such days...
Days that would never end...
Life like this would go on..
and will surpass all the pain....
Everybody left with a smile
Getting ready for the coming days..
With plans of meeting soon again........

Looking at new sunrise everyday....

Looking at new sunrise everyday..
Celebrating the success of the day
Wishing for the smile everyday........
Go to bed with the smile of today...
To get up in the morning
Looking at new sunrise everyday
Listening to the sound of rain....
Searching for the strange joy in every drop..
Forgetting the fact; every drop falls on land in a span of seconds...
I get lost enjoying the rains....
To become aware that beauty is shortlived.......
I go to bed with the thought....
To get up in the morning
Looking at new sunrise everyday...
Someday I gaze at the sun...
Try to know is it the same one...
Time changes every moment....
World changes every moment
Are my days always same?
I go to bed with questions dancing in mind....
Making me dream of all the day....
To get up in the morning
Looking at new sunrise everyday...

Lost or found??

As the time pass by, find the hands of clock moving faster and faster..
seeking an opportunity to find the answer to 'why...'
Leading ahead is a future....
Right behind is where i m lost...
Walking with the questions for tomorrow..
All derived from the days gone by...
So unaware was I or Wind has taken me over by the sides
Feel the pressure, feel the tide
Don't understand why...
Someday i feel i found the answer to my why
the very next moment i clash again with my past....
the smoke of yesterday hurts in my eyes...
The beautiful yesterday tears me apart joining hands with bitter yesterday...
How do I be happy ...or do be sad?
Life isn't steady nor is my breath....
Where do I go to seek my own self.................
Where will I find my own self........
Look within is the answer I get
from all the books that I read....
Tried and tested the formula for better life...but failed remembering the fact of life..
The conflict within, trying to find the answer to why has left me with nothing to enjoy..

I'm lost I am found.......M i not from this world or are my thoughts weired.....I find everyone unknown..No one is mine.....

Who am I?

Happniess never stays at my doors,
It just knocks makes me smile and leaves again with a tear in my eyes.
Always thought for others and than for myself...
Was it wrong or was it my mistake...
Times are passing by like the speed of gushing water of falls..
Rubs against my wounds everytime and goes....
Be the season dry or be it rain, a tear always rolls on cheeks leaving me depressed...
However much I try nothing seems to be my side,
Nothing seems to remain and hold by,
I cared I cried I yelled I pleaded
Things are still so much unsaid..
They think, they assume
They are blinfolded today
Just pray to god they become aware...
Missing life to the fullest..
Those were the days, those were the moments...
They understood me they claimed...
Then how did they fall back and said
" u are strange"
Proving and explanation; why has it become part of relationship,
And why not forget anf forgive just for the sake of relationship...
I m too forget all the past just to give a kick start...
Loads is to life to add on..
Will this separation lay foundation for other..
Mind and heart both say the same..
Wish is to get things to normal or find the way to let go of things...
Im tiered still I am trying praying to god to get back my friends.................

Who is a true friend?

Who is a true friend??
A friend in need is a friend indeed - most commenly used phrase while defining a friend. But does it really stand true if it does then I am sad because I do not have any friend in my life..
The following came as a forward mail to me from someone:
" Once I was walking on a bridge to go to the otherside and reach my friend. Suddenly realised the bridge was going to fall. I yelled, screamed, called out my friend, waved at him but he never retured or came for my help and also did not respond. I reached otherside of bridge somwhow and to my surprise I saw my friend holding to rope; saving the bridge from falling. Moral of the story - Even if your friend does not respond to your pain and problems that you express always remember he is silently holding you from falling."
I do not realy believe in it anymore.

Friends are people who are selfless. Friends are for eachothers help and support. Friends can leave all its priorities just to make you smile or listen to you. A Friend is one who will stand next to you proudly even if you are the most disrespected, ugly person. A true friend is one who knows all your flaws but yet accepts you as you are. A friend is one for whom nothing is comparable in the world. A friend is one who stands at a position which is just after our god and parents. A friend is one who makes you and also breaks you like destiny.
This is what I understand by true friend. I have also been so and tried to be with my friends always.

But when it comes to me why do i get friends for whom it doesnt matter what i go through. When I go to so called mmy best fridn to share my problem it bothers him..he dsnt like it feels im always crying...They c us upset yet will never try to find whats wrong, why you are like this, why are you what you are today, were is always like this...they will never try to find all this but just say that I m sad....I really dont know what the problem with people...
My feelings become fake it i havenr behaved the way anyone would otherwise behave...I m true and honest to ask and tell things but I m not right if i do so.... When I do not behave, say what they want their ego is hurt or probably they have not experienced so much of honesty that they cant bare it they finally have one option i.e. I am fake my emotions are fake I am using them and god knows what....

Its easy to create opinion than finding what the person is....and why he or she is what the present is...........


I feel i am an alien.................. coz im too honest, too true to this world that i always land up giving explations to the truth i said.............So is the problem with me or with the listener.......?

I'll come to you when I need you.........

We humans are so selfish in our life. There are two kind of people one is the person who is intentionally selfish and one non intentionally selfish.
We make friends, we talk to them, we share things with them, we play with them, we cry with them, we laugh we them but is there a pinch of selfishness added to all this relationships in our life?
We make relations with some intention and futher it either becomes selfless relation or feeling or it ends moment ones need is fulfilled.
I have come across so many people in my life some have been with me forever, some left me, some promised and left me and some I left. As always I m confused how do you judge one person. How do we know he/ she is true to us and with their feelings?

......... its for you

Life is a game.....
To breathe the nameOf your saviour

In your hour of need

And taste the blame,

If the flavour should remind you of greed

Of implication, insinuation and you willTill you cannot lie still

In all this turmoil

Before red cave and foil

Come closing in for a kill

Come feed the rain'Cos I'm thirsty for your love, Dancing underneath the skies of lust

Yeah feed the rain

'Cos without your love My life ain't nothing but this carnival of rustIt's all a game

Avoiding failure , When true colours will bleed

All in the name of misbehaviourAnd the things we don't need

I lost for after no disaster can touch,

Touch us anymore

And more than ever I hope to never fall,

Where enough is not the same it was before

Come feed the rain 'Cos I'm thirsty for your love,

Dancing underneath the skies of lust

Yeah feed the rain'Cos without your love My life, ain't nothing but this carnival of rust

Don't walk away,

When the world is burning

Don't walk away,

When the heart is yearning

'Cos without your love My life, ain't nothing but this carnival of rust

Walking away was never easy, destiny was not in favour honey,

I will walk always besides you hold your hand and support you,

Regret is what is left and will remain always,

but remember that Im always there just a call away......................

Should I or Shoudnt I

Happy I m today so much so that I am lost in the world somehwere..
But a tear rolls down my eyes everytime I try to smile....
Fear is high with the excitement too high..
Is life taking a U turn?
Confusion of feelings, fear of commitments from my side and the other side
Will it hurt if I m gone and will it be happy moment if I come
Want to hold back and also go back..
Want to start a fresh yet confused and strength is lack
Thoughts are many decisions are less
Confusion is high and feelings are mixed up
Should I try or should I let go..
Make him confess his commitment or let it go
How do I make my decisions I dont know....
I am in a situation: I have two roads infront of me...
One road takes me back probably with a better start again
One road that has good life ahead but commitment is yet not sure to happen
What do i choose as both are uncertain.......
My heart is what I listen to but it is highly confused right for me to make a decision.....
Life is so difficult, life is so hard
difficult to judge feelings as well as difficult to decide....
Is future in today or in past
So much so tough that I am all confused and lost totally..........

So much so unpredictable ?!@.$#...........

Mind, thinking, character, image, self confidence, others and everything around seems so unpredictable. Humans have problem with anything and everything.
Sometimes we spend so much time with a person yet cant analyse him/her. They behave in a different manner and suddenly due to certain situations we come across their altogether new avtaar. Avtaar that is difficult to understand and analyse as you have never seen the person in such mode and mood. Understanding the perspective and the thoughts behind the face is just not so easy.
If a weak is crying, upset, feeling blue, whose heart just cant accept truth becomes suddenly very strong then why does it bother people. One moment you may be crying but very next moment you realise the truth and you just happen to relax and be happy. But this troubles people. They think the person is difficult to analyse. Why cant a human be the way he wants to be? Everytime is it nencessary that his every act has to define the reason to others observing?
Why people get thrilled with the weak becoming strong? Isnt it little strange?
What is so difficult in accepting things rather than getting into the matter which is personal?
eeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..............such people just irritate me................................
What is their problem in life, why do they get bothered so much, dont they have anything better to do, cant they mind their own business????????????????????????//

Conflict.....

Wondering What should I give more priority? - to friendship that was so cloase or rather still is close to heart or my values. Friendship that meant everything. The friendship that started with such wonderful talks, moments. Wasnt it as important as anything else in my life?
Should I ignore what my friend said in anger, agony, ambiguity etc. All the bad words he used and said? Should I let go of my values and self respect for friendship and that special friend? And give friendship one more last chance from my side? Probably it may not be as good as it was but atleast be there?
The friendship is still breathing in me and my heart but is it dead for him? Should I still try to talk to him once and try and get back this friendship for my soul sake, my heart sake and my life sake?
My friend passes by my side. The one who used to stop to give me smile; has now stopped looking at me. The care I used to see in the eyes has suddenly vanished. What do I do of this incomplete feeling. I am in search of that smile, that voice, that concern, those jokes, those moments, those times.
I am missing a friend. However bad he was he was my best friend. How can I let go of him in this manner? How can I let him go how can I? But, how do I get him back how do I. Please help me lord.
My mind reminds me of values and self respect whereas heart says this friendship is more important for you;what you doing how can you let go without trying. Like we fight with diseases in our life to survive in the same way you have to fight with bad,wrong and everything else to make sure a relationship survives.
What do I do??

I want to go back..........

I want to go back..go back to the days i already spent. Go back and erase all the back and wrong days of life, wrong moments, wrong minutes, wrong situation, wrong friends, wrong words spoken, wrong words written, wrong things I did and everything else that was not right....
I am left with so many questions, so many confusions that I get fed up someday looking atmy life. Feel like my life is runnig ahead and I m left far behind standing on the road and just observing my life go far very far.
Want to hold on to my life, want to walk with it hand in hand, want to be at same pace as my life is. Analysing every bit of my life from childhood till today does not remind me of any beatiful memories. It remindes me of pain, anger, hatred,loss and nothing else. I have lost lost and lost.
waiting for the day I can gain and remember.
Feel like going back to my mothers womb and relive all the days again by correcting all the wrong that happend. Reenjoy every moment, relive all the days that I lost, regain all the friends I lost, Regain all the love that I lost , regain all the precious moment that I lost which could have been beautiful and most cherished.

..........I want to go back to my mothers womb.........

Wishes and Expectations...

Things seem to have gone beyond my expectations. The connection of every statement and word with the past makes me analyse lot of things. These things make me think are they true, are they as i thought or are they as I m thinking right now. How can a person be disturbed so emotinally or mentally that he does not realise what he is talking and to whom. He could be hurting someone by his words, gestures but he fails to realise and goes on and on over and over again...
Wish we humans had an eraser which could erase all the bad past memory from my mind. This would have helped us not to think of gone days, not to compare eople, not judge people, not think of days that have gone past.
Wish we humans were like pencil with a sharpner. We could break the shaken and used lead and resharpen the pencil / life again like fresh new lead.
Wish we had whiteners available in life. We could cleanoff the mistakes and rewrite that moment with different meaning, different depth, different feeling and different attitude towards life.
I wish my life to be like whitener, like pencil with sharpner, like rubber, like a computer whihc runs on command like delete and control alt delete. Life would be so different and beautiful...
I wish and i wish and i wish...............

Strange analysis for me...........

When a person fights to get his love in his life he has only one thing positive with him that is their strong love and nothing else. Everything else it just the part and parcel of life which is dealt with and lived with time.


Love is not based on any research or analysis. It is the most heaviest weight on this earth compared to anything around. It holds hearts together, world together, humans together and animals together so on and so forth. Thats the strenght of love provided you believe in it and have trust in it and in your ownself.



Love happens due to chemistry with the person that is felt at a very large level. If one starts being an analyser even while falling in love; they will never have time left to love. Loss of everyday is an opportunity lost for love.



Spending every second is so important with the one you love as it increases strength of that love every time to support and gives courage to fight with the world around. In love u are in a big ground and we are alone standing against the whole world population. But the strength of love is so much that it can win over god too.............

When will the sunrise.............

A decision of changing myself was very easy to make at this stage of my life. But able to change is a biggest deal right now. Cannot find any path infront of me. There is no left,no right, no front and no back. Its just a round circle.
Have decided to pick some good things of past and improve my today. The way I look, The way i think, the way i feel.
Being selfish is the key to success for sure. I m extremely sure of it. My honesty and truthfulness never gave me anything in my life. Forget that others will be hurt, do what u want and feel unless family is happy..
However big the pain just smile because it makes family smile, a mother smile what can be bigger treasure in life than this. Things come, Things go, People come in our life, People go from our life what are we left with..some pain, some smile, some teards, some laughter and sometimes inseparable change that gets attached to ones soul.........
My pain that small (in the form of time)yet big in meaning and terms has killed me from within and I m changing a big way. Life has taught me biggest lesson of my life. Its about being on grounds and reality. No one cares. Emotions, feelings its all good to be said but when comes to be shown and expressed becomes a pain and complication. There is nothing like emotions in life.................Nothing called love in life.........................This are all words

My hobby does not want to be with me???????

Hobby and interest is something that makes a person cheerful when feeling down and out. It makes one smile and feel relaxed and light.
My hobby had always been my best friend. My fears have come out of me in the form of painting. It has never been away from me. Paintings are very close to me.
BUT
Today I have seen my paintings going away from me. I have lost interest in the brightest colours of my life. Colours have always mad me feel good. I have always been so excited about them but today its all different. I cannot see anything except black and white.
The permutation and combination of this colour also does not make any other colour expect grey...Grey shade of life is the phase I m in.
I want to come out how when where what i dnthave any answer for it..............I m all lost in transit

Whats the truth..

What is the truth of this world around me? Is it what i see, is it what i hear or is it what i cant see I dnt know.
The past does not allow me to believe in today..My past does not allow me to trust world around me. I always have questions in my mind, always trying to analyse people around me. Trying to find who is honest, who is truthful, who is my friend and who is not.
What people think of me. What people feel for me. What people think I am. All is very important to me but cannot trust anyones comment and anyones opinion.
I m tiered of all the negative and also all the positive. Cant a human stop analysing its life?
When will I learn to trust people again?When will this fear from me go away?When will I learn my life to the fullest?

Dreams are nothing...........

There was a time I used to believe that dream is path to future and success. Life should be lived with dreams in eyes as it turns to be a goal with time. But, I was wrong dream is nothing is just like time. It just passes away with sleep every nite.
No dreams can be goals. The reality is what makes your future and your life. Live in presence and not in dreams. Dreams become more heavy when shattered.
Live life materialistic and you have success and happiness running your way but moment you live life with dreams and emotions it kills your future, its kills your innner someone who is as pure as god.
Life is nothing more than practicality, materialistic world and lifeless creatures all around. Nature, love, emotions, feelings everything is bullshit infront of all this as it does not take you anywhere.........................

So Stop dreaming and start living the way world is because there is no body who understands............

Too many questions.................

A person upset, Frustrated in life with things that are going against his wish and want. Several thoughts jumping in mind and the change in mood constantly.
Mind is thinking something but does not know what, why and how. The fear of loosing someone. The fear of past affecting the presence and future in every possible manner. The trouble, the hurt, the depression and pool of rotten thoughts, rotten feelings makes life more worst and rotten like and egg which people loved eating once upon a time but now cant even bear it.
Dealing with such feelings seems always so difficult and impossible. Why human being is only left with one answer that is "Change yourself" for the materialistic world which does not understand and feel for one.
Why does life leave us with no answers and only questions. With no options but only decisions....No opportunity only pain.....

"ONE'S PAST DEPENDS ON PRESENCE AND FUTURE DEPENDS ON PRESENCE. ALL THIS IS A CYCLE OF LIFE"

Crowd around........

Today morning as regular routine last few days I was waiting at electric house for my friends. Was standing near adidas showroom. Regular process on road was going on, hawkers setting their stall, begger taking his place and emptied his bottle of water and gave it to his friend to fill it for fresh water, buses moving by, taxis running fast, everybody honking, all in rush to reach office, open their shops....lot of thing happening all around me but felt like I was all alone...Felt like one yellow frog between 1000 black frogs jumping all around without knowing where to go.
Life is going somewhere where I do not know. Moving ahead with time,with the speed of world around feeling lost yet found yet lost again.
World is close to me but I m far from it. ...

Life is the biggest teacher..

Right now what I am writing may not have any connection with my title but it just my heart speaking purely. Attimes it becomes very important to be aware in every relationship however close or far it is. a pure heart always makes a human behave purely and many a times others do not understand. Definately not their mistake but the way they take certain issues is their way of looking at things.
I almost lost my best friends. I know one is already going far rather has gone pretty far but to lose the other as well as whatever much I have of both will break me completely. I got an opportunity to learn this from my life today that how it would be to lose this friends from my life.
It is hurting me today I m in pain bad pain. Feel devasted due to a particular thing in my life.
Losing the opportunity which one never got is more troubling than getting an opportunity and losing a game.
Hurt and pain will always remain in heart for life with a regret. Regret will remain with a big quetions "Why not" and "Why me" unanswered forever....This unanswered questions haunt me, hurt me give me pain and generate more questions in my mind.
I now realise how it feels to lose someone who so close to your heart and soul in a span of few minutes.
Just pray to god that this is the last time I am going through this trauma. I need stability, peace in my life and around me................................

Regret and guilt.......

Regret and guilt are the most dirty feeling to go through. Facing this situation is as difficult as handling your ship in storm.
Guilt of making someone you loved the most on this earth feel suffocated in love is the worst thing one can go through. Making that person hate the word called Love which is supposed to be the best feeling in the world. This one thing can turn things upside down.
All the love is lost all the effort to make someone feel special is gone away with the flow of wave which will never come back.
The regret of entering someones life making it hell is the worst feeling to live with. Thats the end of life and all the other feelings in heart.
A person who is pure at heart can never handle such situation. Making someone hate their past their relationship and the soulful relation they thought and wished of living with ...can anything be more disastrous than this??
How do I live with this feeling?How do i live my life? I thought i helped someone live his life but i screwed it big time. What did I do in my life? This is the biggest weight on my shoulder I need to live with..Cant express more on blog i do not know but I regret my life today...will never forget March 28, 2009 which was suppose to be most beautiful day of my life...but i left nothing to ruin things on the day and after that.........................my life is nothing more than these full stops right now..............................

Clashhhh.................no better word found

Why are there so many unsaid feelings in human mind and heart. Why are this feelings difficult to express. God gave us feelings but din not provide us with right words and society did not provide us the right to express.
Why every statement and every word seems to be in complete and feels like does not really express what heart wants to say.
Why life lives us all alone with thousands of questions which are not just impossible to answer but impossible to manage too.
In this so called god made, altered by humans version of world why do people like me suffer. Our emotions remain within unexpressed, unfelt due to lot of laws, rules & regulations of society.
Why we do not get opportunity to leave the original world created by god. Why are we forced to live life that is artificial; follow rules that are made by someone we do not even know.
Why somebody else has right to take decision. Why does someone else has right to guide our paths. Why are their clashes of emotions and feelings between two people. Why do humans envy each other. Why are humans so in secured as I am too....

"LIFE HAS DEFINITION YET WITHOUT ANY MEANING EASY TO FIND....."

Every relation in my life....

My fear and my relations all go hand in hand.. The fear attached to every new relation in my life keeps me away from making justice to myself n my new relations.
Every time I make new relation why does a fear hold my hand and move with me? A fear of becoming a topic of timepass for that new perosn? The fear of becoming a topic of joke and laughter for that person and other around them? A fear of losing that person?
Why it gets difficult to trust someone....
Inspite of having tried thousands time to be positive about the thoughts arrives in my mind. I know I am not very smart, intelligent but does that make me a piece of joke ???????????????
I think I should not get close to anyone...stay away as it hurts..............I can never have any true friends or people just dont want to be true to me...I really do not know..........
I fear making new friends............I better stay away from all

Ambiguity of Colours

Every colour has its own quality and look. Was just trying to find out the same. Thought for a while when I was travelling home yesterday ( February 17, 2009). And I was amazed how every colour has got positive as well as negative characteristics of its own......and the way we create
opinions.

Red : it is violent/it religious too

White: Peaceful/the memory of death

Yellow: Bright / colour of hatred

Orange: setting of sun and end of the day/ Nature at its best when sky is orange

Black : Graceful colour for parties/ the memory of death

This way there may be thousands of colours with such differences in opinion..It is a challenge for an artist to decide on which colour to be used for portraying which kind of feeling.....

A true artist falls short of colours even if provided with 1000 colours and the confusion keeps continuing.....

Ambiguity of life......

Today, I feel life is full of questions for which a human can never find answers. Moment one answer is found another question arises.
It is as complicated aa a mordern art for a layman to understand. As art is never defined life is too. Defination of it changes every minute, every second, every hour and at every step.
God gives life just once and living it to the fullest is upto us. The laws of society stop us from njoying every bit of it. We humans have created such rules n regulations that we have spoilt the original taste of life.
All are born with their own good and bad qualities. Life is fair to all while writing chapter of every individuals journey on this earth. But, we have created so many berriers n measures to weigh things that we failed to understand the true essence of life.
Problems come and problems go, time goes but does not come back. Enjoying every second of journey is very important. Do not give yourselfan opportunity to regret.
........................................................................Life is beautiful......................................................................